Monday, 27 August 2012

Love ?? Learn it from BoBo !!


Ko Ko Ko KOOOOOOOOO..

BoBo opened his eyes hearing this..
Me and BoBo reached my home land two weeks back for our vacation..

Hearing this BoBo..got up from his bed and headed straight to the kitchen and asked my mom whether it's chicken for the breakfast..and came to know it was egg for the breakfast..

Ko Ko Ko KOOOOOOOOO..

After hearing it again BoBo headed staight to backyard to see the chickens playing ..BoBo was so happy to see them playing and BoBo too joined them soon.I saw him being very excited to play with the chickens and I got back to the house..

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.....Ohhhhhhhhh..
It was BoBo's scream and I rushed to the backyard to see BoBo running from one side and a huge hen chasing him..As soon as BoBo saw me,he climbed upon me..

BoBo     : RUNNN..Save me from this Giant chicken..it is chasing me ..

Me         :Why is that hen chasing you ?? What did you do to it ??

BoBo      :I did nothing I just tried catching a running ball..Soon this fat chicken saying Kokokokooo came flying near me and made me ran for my life..

Me          :Which ball ??

BoBo       :See...There it is...

Me          : Hahahahaaaaaaaa...this was the ball which BoBo said..


Me        :BoBo,you tried to grab its kid..and it's not a ball..

BoBo     :Ohh..I didn't know that..Don't worry I will be nice to them.I will forgive that chicken since  it didn't know that I was a Super Ero..

BoBo,soon got some grains for them and got into their company..BoBo was enjoying a lot with them.Everyday soon after waking up he would run to the backyard to play with them.BoBo was too busy in spending time with them and he couldn't even think about spending a second without them.He would feed them all the time and I was surprised to see the kind of bond they had between them.I even saw BoBo sitting on a chicken and was riding it like a horse !! BoBo turned into a Cow BoY !! BoBo fed them in such a awy that all the chicken started growing more fat and it was really quick.Each morning he would run screaming "UNCLE" to the backyard.And this is his uncle..Mr.Uncle Juno..

I was sipping my hot coffee near the backyard and I saw BoBo running to the backyard screaming UNCLE......and what surprised me was,I heard another voice screaming BoBooooooo...and it was Uncle Juno on the other side running towards him..I was damn surprised and my eyes got filled seeing there Love..And I said 'Every mothers should be like him".It was the first time I saw BoBo getting so affectionate..and really that sight was so pleasing..BoBo stretching his arms wide open and Uncle Juno stretched his wings to hug each other.HUG....Then what I heard was BoBo crying and Uncle Juno lying down beside him..
Do you all know what happened ? 
BoBo's love hug went a little too hard so that Uncle Juno couldn't breathe.Hence Uncle Juno passed away.BoBo was crying so badly and it was a great emotional tragedy..
BoBo consoled all the other chickens...I was really sad to see Bobo crying..BoBo was totally wrecked !! But next day morning I saw BoBo feeding all the chickens ...But he was soo gloomy..
Gradually BoBo overcame that tragedy as days passed.BoBo was so caring to the chickens and they both loved each other so well..

BoBo was back on track very soon....I was sad that my leave was getting over and had to get back to work very soon.But BoBo was so happy to return back..

Me     :BoBo,You seem to be happy in returning back..Aren't you sad about leaving the chickens ?

BoBo  :I will definitely take care of them..But I won't say how..

BoBo cetainly had some plans with the chicken and I was very sure that he couldn't go without them..Several questions popped in my mind..Whether he will take all the chickens with him in plane to abroad ?? or will he parcel them all ??

No idea,but BoBo had a plan for sure..

Tomorrow Morning we have to leave..Me and BoBo packed our bags for the next day.I still had no clue about the chickens..I soon left to meet some of my old friends and relatives and came back at night..
When I came back home..It was a feast prepared for the dinner,for BoBo !! 
It was like a Buffet !! And I was stunned to SEE ...........













































































BoBo was eating it by enjoying each bite...mmmmmmmmm wow !! This was his reaction..
All these items now seen on the plate were those who were in the backyard playing all these days with BoBo..
And BoBo enjoying having it !!! Had no clue what happened and How was this possible for BoBo ???

BoBo    :Hey..don't look at those and drop water off your mouth,my tummy will get upset..come and grab a leg..

Me      :BoBo,these are those from our backyard !!

BoBo   :Yes,You teaching me ?? I fed them and made them so fat for this day !! WoW Mega dinner !! See their legs..mmmmmmm huge and tastyy..They were so thin when I came and wouldn't have been tasty if cooked in that condition..Now they see how smart they are on the plate...

Me       :Then why did you cry when Uncle Juno died ??

BoBo   :Don't remind me that,even now it hurts....How can I afford the loss of Uncle Juno who had 4.5 kg..He had firm legs and I was planning him as my Trump card for today's dinner..I missed him early ..I missed his legs... ohHHH..I can't bear it..I fed him so well and he piled up 3 kgs in no time and died without seeing my stomach..
Me      :BoBOoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

What will I say ?? I was once wrongly amazed seeing their love and even my eyes got filled seeing their Love.And I remarked his love as an example for all mothers.I take everything back !!..How much I got tensed to console BoBo thinking that he loved Uncle Juno..Where he was crying for the loss of uncle's leg and 4.5 kg meat...And all the chickens here now represent each item now on the table..Chicken fry,tandoori chicken,Chilly chicken,Chicken curry..etc..
I didn't eat my dinner,to be precise I didn't feel to eat it...

He had packed the pic of Uncle Juno's to keep at his home,to remember his 4.5 kg loss..even during sleep he murmurs..Miss you Uncle..Miss you..

BoBo slept on the dining table itself,he couldn't move even an inch after having all those..still he holds a bone leg piece in his hand..And guess who's it was..It was of the giant hen that chased him !

Is it me who went Nuts or is it BoBo who has to be treated soon ?? Sorry I misunderstood his hunger as Love !!

Tuesday, 14 August 2012

The Seasons of Mohanan's Life !! (Updated)

Oh God !! Tomorrow Morning I will get my results..Please somehow pass me to grade 7.I have come all long this way walking because I know you will definitely help me.Without you I wouldn't have passed my 5th grade.

This was Mohanan's prayer to God.Hope he must have sent a vivid description of his request to God.Next day it was all smiles for Mohanan,he passed his grade 6 and is moving to the next grade.

Mohanan belongs to a very poor family.Mohanan's dad passed away when he was at the age of 3.He hardly remembers him,but loves him a lot.His dad worked in Singapore and was quiet wealthy.But soon after Mohanan lost his dad,the family wrecked.Mohanan have two elder brothers.His 1st elder brother is 20 years elder to him and he is in Dubai and his 2nd elder brother is 10 years elder to him.His mom works in a coir factory and she is so beloved to him.

Even though the background music during the introduction of his family was sad,Mohanan was a very active kid.Mohanan has got his school athletic meet tomorrow and he is waiting for him mom to arrive from work.By the time Mohanan plucked flowers for God and prayed at the right time.
Mohanan started waiting again for his mom and he is feeling very hungry too.Not too late,his mom arrived soon and started preparing food for the dinner.Mohanan fell asleep by the time......
After he woke up next day morning,he asked about whether he had dinner last night or not.His mom said that she gave him food while he was asleep.
This was what happened to Mohanan most days in his life.Every day he fell asleep before the dinner was made.He had food only once in a day and that too without his knowing while in sleep.He wouldn't be remembering the taste of the food,mostly he wouldn't even remember having food.

Mohanan got ready for his school and remember it's his school athletic meet today.

Mohanan started to school from his home.He is walking bare footed all long to his school which is 4 km from his home.As soon as Mohanan reached the school he went to the roadside tap and drank stomach full of water.Mohanan is now getting ready for his 100 m race...Mohanan has got a secret,he knows that he don't have the energy to run.From the nearby tree he plucked a handful of pepper balls.Just getting on mark for the race Mohanan put the entire pepper balls and chewed it.
UFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF !! Mohanan Ran .. In fact he was flying !!! No doubt ,Mohanan won the race by a huge margin.May be Usain Bolt could have lost in this match to Mohanan.Mohanan was running in fire,And I'm sure Mohanan would had smoke over all his holes.heheheee.Mohanan got a big steel tumbler as gift which his mom took to buy Milk next day Morning !! hehee

Mohanan had a great collection of dresses.Each day he would wear each colour and his friends were amazed by Mohanan's collections.There was a secret behind these collections.hehee
Mohanan had different colour powders with him.Each day soon after coming from his school he would immerse his shirt in a bucket of hot water mixed with a particular colour.Similarly yellow,blue,green,red,black,white,pink,violet etc shirts were born.Once Mohanan was caught by a friend when he pointed out Mohanan's collar where it was discoloured a little.But he didn't make fun or said to anyone else because he knew that Mohanan was from a very poor family.
 Whenever his 1st elder brother arrives from Dubai he would bring slippers for Mohanan,but his sister in law always took it for her use and say that he had never worn slippers and he always walk barefooted,So that he had no use with it.Mohanan wouldn't go for any argument.

Mohanan would get some pocket money when he cleans his brothers taxi vehicle.With that money Mohanan would go straight to film theater to catch a glimpse of his favourite star.Mohanan had a huge interest in movies,he wouldn't miss any of them.

Today this evening Mohanan is praying his same usual prayers,but this time he is giving a vivid description about helping him pass through his 9th Grade.As usual it was all smiles next day morning.Yes,Mohanan is now in 10th std.By now his 2nd elder brother too went abroad.Mohanan still had his great collections.To his collections his elder bro gave some of his old dresses.With that one shirt of his elder bro,he could stitch a trouser too for him..heheee..because it was too huge for him.

Mohanan had a special affection with the mango and Jack fruit around his house,because those filled his stomach many times.His favourites were having Raw mango with salt and honey Jack fruit.Mohanan is a great lover of food and likes all kind of foods,but except one food !!!
MUSHROOMS !! Whenever Mohanan thinks about Mushrooms,a horror background music of late 80's comes in his mind.Ahhh..it's a story !!

This happened when he was 6 year old.Mushrooms are those which grow anywhere where there is a touch of water content.Along with Mohanan there were another 2 children.They plucked mushrooms from ground and ate it raw.Two of them fell unconscious and one started vomiting.
His 2nd elder bro took him and ran nearly 3 km to the near by hospital,he got no vehicle on the way.His bro carried him all the way crying for his younger bro's life.The one who fell unconscious with Mohanan was declared dead on food poisoning.Mohanan had a very close save.From that day if he see mushrooms,he would be like a bull seeing a red colour.

Mohanan,even though belonged to a very poor family always kept his family background hidden from his school mates.In school,during his lunch breaks whenever friends ask him to have lunch with them,Mohanan always replied to them that he would have from canteen and go outside the class.He goes straight to the roadside tap and have stomach full of water and washes his face.Standing near the tap Mohanan always looked at the college next to his college compound and he wished one day he too would reach that college.From tap Mohanan goes straight under a tree where very less people come,standing there he would apply talcum power on his face and style his hair.

Mohanan is fresh,stomach full,energetic and handsome..right ??

Now,again Mohanan is praying...tomorrow morning his 10th results would come..
"Dear God,tomorrow my results would come,I know this time I would never make it to the next grade.I'm not going to ask my God to help me this time.I came here to thank my God for helping me all these years.Here after I don't think so that I would be able to continue my studies.But It's a miracle that I reached at least 10th grade.Thanks a lot my God.Give me the strength to overcome everything."Mohanan's 10th grade Notebooks were the same he used in 9th grade and his entire 10th grade notes were written on the space which we leave above and below each page.

His results too weren't that surprising.Yes,Mohanan didn't make it this time.He Failed !!
His elder bro asked him to come to Dubai for work.First thing that come to his mind was about his mom.Even though she had 3 sons,Mohanan was the only one who have always been with her.Rest two brothers were married and had their family to look after.With great pain Mohanan decided to go to Dubai.He was only 16 at that time,he had to increase 2 years in his passport to get through work permit.With great pain,Mohanan departed to Dubai..

At the age of 16,what Mohanan had to go through wasn't easy at all.Mohanan had to carry pipes and metals in a place which was 90% desert once and temperature touching 50 degree Centigrade.Mohanan started earning and would send money to his mother.It was only after coming to Dubai,Mohanan started having lunch.Mohanan developed an interest in building a good body before he go and meet his mom after 2 years.As part of that Mohanan decided to join Karate classes along with his friends.But Mohanan always got late for his Karate classes because his work would end only by the time the classes start.As the initial in karate was to get a firm palm,so he had to press his hands into hot mud.His friends too had the same step.But 1 week later his friends started punching on the Boxing bag and Mohanan was asked to continue on mud.When Mohanan enquired why he wasn't moved to the next level,his master replied that you were late to the classes daily..Similarly he continued this for a month,still he got no chance to the boxing bag.Mohanan stopped his karate classes after getting annoyed with his master and decided to exercise by his own.As a result Mohanan started lifting Gas cylinder daily morning and he succeeded in getting a firm shoulders,hands and legs.

Mohanan started earning and the tough times were getting over.Mohanan was taught mechanics by his senior colleagues and soon Mohanan was promoted as a Mechanic.Mohanan was a brilliant mechanic.Mohanan's life has changed a lot by then.When he reached the age of 27,it was wedding bells for Mohanan.Mohanan was gifted with an Angel..Mohanan then never had to look back in his life,as Mohanan always say "It must be because of the good things I did in my past life,I was gifted an Angel."

When It comes down to describing Mohanan's character,he has the lightest heart in this world.He is a man who forgives anyone very soon.And the love he holds for everyone is immense.What ever love Mohanan shows would be just 10% of his love in his heart.A very sensitive,lovely,caring,
friendly and a man with a smile always.In short A River of Love !!

Hello !!! Don't be so pleased...He has got another face too..."Terror" even that word would be small in front of him."Anger" is the only problem Mohanan has got.When he gets angry it's like Elephant in a sugarcane field.Mohanan isn't short tempered but at times YES !! Mohanan always say about his wife "If it was some other woman in his wife's place,she would have fled long back".But his wife knew him very well and the bond they had is tremendous,except his anger..heheee.There love is a real treat to watch..His wife gets up early in the morning,takes bath and pray first.Soon she will wake up Mohanan to take bath and go for work.By the time Mohanan wakes up from his bed his oil would be kept ready..tooth brush would be ready with paste on it...hot water would be ready with shaving racer in it..When he gets into the bathroom..she would arrange his dresses kept ready on the bed and start making black tea and breakfast for him.Mohanan after taking bath would go straight to prayer room.When he enters his dressing room,hot black tea would be ready.Mohanan after having the tea would start getting ready and styles himself well.After almost getting ready he would call his wife,to put his socks on.Soon after putting socks for him,she would go and polish his shoes and place them near the door.Soon Mohanan would come out of the dressing room ready and gets into the prayer room and does a small prayer again.When he steps out of his home there is a mosque near by,he would look at the mosque and pray for a minute.After that his wife would handover the breakfast packed in a tiffin.She will wait at the doorstep till he reaches the stairs..Before passing by,they would show "Tata"..His wife then would straight go to the window to see him..Mohanan would start his vehicle and before going another "Tata" would be shared...


Season 2

Mohanan's wife came to Dubai 4 years after their marriage.Those 4 years were so vital in Mohanan's life. 

Mohanan had the best days of his life after marriage.They used to go for watching films regularly,almost everyday.The ride they had together on the bike with his wife hugging him still remains as one of his best nostalgic feelings.Once Mohanan and his wife decided to take his mother along with them for a movie.When they reached the theater they realized the film which they planned to watch had changed and it was a new film running there.Mohanan took tickets for that movie and  they sat down ,as the movie Started !!.40 minutes later Mohanan along with his mother and wife was sitting at their home with their heads down having dinner.What happened 45 minutes back ??Mohanan and his wife planned to take his mother for a family movie.But would anyone take their parents for an 18+(A) family oriented movie ??But they didn't know the fact that it was an adult movie..The movie started..3 minutes of introduction notes...After 10 minutes Actions started...There eyes got Bulged and mouth OPEN...5 minutes later things got WORST...2 minutes later they got in their car...In 10 minutes they reached home..10 minutes later they were having dinner with their heads down..From the moment they got in car to return back from the theater till the end of the night.......the atmosphere was of an Award movie....Complete SILENCE....Reminding you all that it was the first time Mohanan's mother went to a theater for watching a movie.

Mohanan left back to Dubai after his 2 months leave..Mohanan and his wife lived on letters thereafter.They were sending letters very frequently as a Taj Mahal was built through their letters.After a month Mohanan received a letter which bulged his eyes out !! This time it was due to happiness because Mohanan was going to be a Dad !! Mohanan was the happiest person on earth and their dreams on the kid continued through letters..10 months later Mohanan visited one of his relative's home in Dubai along with his friends.When Mohanan walked in ,the relative turned his head away in anger.When Mohanan enquired about his anger,he stared at him angrily.
When Mohanan's friends asked the relative the reason for his anger on Mohanan,the relative replied "This guy,till now he didn't inform me that he was blessed with a baby boy last week" Mohanan was shocked in hearing this !! Mohanan asked him to repeat what he said again..
Seeing Mohanan's reaction his friends asked whether he didn't know about this..Mohanan replied "I never knew about this and no one informed me"Mohanan,after a minute started enquiring eagerly about his baby boy..Those days it was very expensive to make an International phone call.Mohanan rang his 2 brother in laws and said that he just now came to know that he became a dad.They didn't have an answer to Mohanan's question on why didn't they inform him.They too felt disappointed on it..

Mohanan was very eager to see his son,but he had to wait another 2 more years to get a leave from his company.Mohanan was counting his days for 2 years..One week before his scheduled leave,the workshop in which Mohanan worked was caught in fire.Mohanan was returning after having his lunch to the workshop when he saw his workshop in fire.As soon when the police arrived they saw only Mohanan infront the workshop and he was taken into custody.Mohanan cried pleading not guilty to the offense for which he was suspected.One week later it was reported that the fire was caught due to Short Circuit.Mohanan was freed by his company owner Bhatia after 7 days..Bhatia was hurted over this because his innocent employee had to suffer for 7 days in jail.As soon Mohanan was freed from jail ,he put down his resignation letter stating that he wanted to go back to his homeland as soon as possible to be with his wife and his 2 and half year old kid whom he has never seen yet.Mohanan said Bhatia that he is very scared to be in this country again where he was almost punished.Bhatia was a great person with a heart.Bhatia wanted to compensate for Mohanan's suffering.As a result Bhatia asked Mohanan to bring his wife and kid to Dubai.The company helped Mohanan in getting a family status inorder to bring his family to Dubai.Inorder to get a family status one must have AED 3000 and above where Mohanan had only 740 AED.Bhatia helped Mohanan as a compensation for everything.Rest of the things happened like watching a 100 m race.Everything happened in a jiffy.Within next 3 months Mohanan's wife and kid arrived at Dubai..Mohanan couldn't control his tears with joy..Mohanan's joy when he saw his wife and kid can never be explained through words.Those were really beyond words !! Mohanan hugged his wife and kid and raised his hands calling his son..but his 3 year old son turned back..Mohanan knew he turned back because it was the first time that his son saw his father..Yes his kid was fat,chubby and Super cute with curly hairs..

Mohanan a very strong devotee of God believed those 7 worst days in jail was for a very long smile in future.This is how Mohanan say to those who are on the suffering side "If you are suffering at present,it is for a longer smile in future..So you are lucky to be on the suffering side because your long happy days are nearing".

To be continued...

Friday, 10 August 2012

Dear Sisters......from your loving Brother !!

Dear Sisters,

Since last decade,women,especially young girls all over the world have been harassed through the Internet and hundreds of suicides have led way for it. I do not want this article to sound like a cliche.So,I would like to speak through this article ,as talking to my sister.
How ??
It's been very natural that girls and lads get into relationships.Some relation may sustain life long and others may get broken down in the midway.
To be very Precise 
When being in a relationship,boys and girls do take snaps of each other.There are also occasions where the girls send their sexy pics,nude pics to their boy friends.Video chats through Skype,Yahoo etc can be recorded and are quite evident from hundreds of MMS Scandals that are easily available through sex sites.
Photos,videos that are sent to your lads do not have any guarantee that it won't get uploaded in such sites.When relationships broke,lads may upload these on net as a revenge.We all trust in our relationships,but still the risks are pretty high.
How ??
The pics sent to the lads will be saved in their laptop,desktop,mobile etc.In case of any problem to any of these devices will end up in repair shops.Even if these photos and videos are deleted before submitting it for repair,the repairing fellow can easily recover these photos and videos very easily using a recovery software.You can google about "Recovery Softwares" to know more about it.
Deleted files from hard disks,memory cards can easily be recovered using this recovery software.
When these files are recovered,I need not explain much on the risks that is going to happen further.This is also applicable to the digital camera's you use to take pics.You may click hundreds of your vacation snaps and that may include your Hot pics over it.Before submitting it to the studio you may delete those pics.But even after doing so ,the studio fellows can recover it using the same procedure mentioned above.This nearly means that you can never click a "Hot pic" from your camera,because anytime when given it to the studio,they would be able to recover it.
Hence those things which you would have taken for your lovers would end up seen by millions of other people.A second of fun can result in the end of your/sisters/wife's LIFE.

This happens not only to young girls but also to grown up couples who film their sex session for fun.The risks involved in this very private fun are the chances of it being Public.The after effects of these can be known if you think about this for a moment,because life as a fugitive being pessimistic and to handle those people who envy your feelings are not very easy.Sadly,that's the reason why people end their lives at a very good age.

Please think about this for a moment,I do not want your sister/daughter/wife/grand daughter/friend or anyone to become a victim of this.Most of them are not aware of the risks they are falling into.They may fall prey to this malicious activity of sex addicted fraternity.This can not only save your sister/daughter/wife/friends,but your parents too..We all would love to see them with their smile ON !! .If you have a sister/friend or anyone,Please do share and spread this awareness before things get tardy.

Thursday, 9 August 2012

Abbreviations You Have to Know !!

NEWS          :NORTH EAST SOUTH WEST

CHESS         :Chariot,Horse,Elephant,Soldiers.

COLD          :Chronic Obstructive Lung Disease.

JOKE           :Joy Of Kids Entertainment.

AIM             :Ambition In Mind.

DATE          :Day and Time Evolution.

EAT             :Energy and Taste.

TEA             :Taste and Energy Admitted.

PEN             :Power Enriched in Nib.

SMILE        :Sweet Memories in Lip Expression.

BYE             :Be With You Every time.

BoBo's Magic Tricks !! (1)


Find The Coin
Effect: A coin is covered with any one of three cups and the cups are then moved around. You can say
immediately which cup is covering the coin.
Secret: Attached to the coin is a long hair. When the coin has been covered the three cups can be moved
around as much as anyone wants. Although your back has been turned while this has been going on you can
easily locate which cup hides the coin. All you have to do is look for the hair sticking out from beneath one
of the cups and that tells you all you need to know!


Sunday, 5 August 2012

8 years 7 months 26 days ...

Eyes closing slowly...
Hearing my college teachers voice announcing hall ticket...
Surya..Roll No:327 ,Hall No.65..
Yes,my name is Surya..I hear it this way now..
Surya   ..age:22   Chest No:327  & Cell No:65..
Sitting on a bench along with other outlaws..eyes closed ...tears running down and praying God to wake me up from sleep to realize that it's a nightmare..Since it's really hot,one may find it difficult to understand tears and sweat running over my face.
Got a new dress,with my chest number on it..The constable PC 276 asks me to strip infront of him..
"Bastard Remove your clothes off !! Do you have something else that others don't have,mother fucker !! "
From my school days,I had a habit to slap the opponent who ever abuses my parents,when it came to high school and college,my attitude was to blow there head off,if any one abuses me.
Now,when I hear the swearing from constable..SILENCE...CALM...that was my attitude..may be those weren't the things running in my mind during that.They made a thorough check all over my body.I did hear giggles from other policemen.They made me open up my back as the last process of checking..Heard from the jail superintendent that my cell is in the new block.
Now,walking to my block with my hands tied backwards using handcuffs..,between two huge wall..
Could feel the smell of that very hot concrete blocks..it's a very narrow way ...feeling the heat on my bare foot...Its being a little difficult to breathe between those two wall..Its very hot and I feel hot air sucked into my nose and feeling so thirsty...Sweating like hell and I had no way other than to lick my sweat to make my tongue wet...


At home I never sat without AC..I remembered shouting at my mom for switching my Ac off at night midway of my sleep.I always loved sleeping with my blankets on and my knees pulled up hugging a pillow...
Reached my cell,there are 3 other persons in that cell..A jug of water and a small closet were at each corners..The floor was entirely filled with dust and the cell was burning hot..


Sitting on that dusty cement floor,I remembered shouting at my mom,seeing an ant on my bed..
In between I kept on lifting my back every 10-15 seconds because it was so hot.After some time,they brought bread for all...Seeing the condition of that plate,I felt like vomiting..
I used to shout at my mom if I see the plates infront of me is wet..Here its absolutely dry,but never cleaned..And I'm a person who never drinks from a tumbler used by others..
Seems like I'm gonna have a serious change in my hi-fi habits..
Two days I had nothing...couldn't even sleep on that hot cement floor and never uttered a single word to my cell mates.On the 3rd day they came to me and said "this is a fact and you have to go through this..How long are you going to stay without food ??.."
My eyes got filled with tears...and I said "I just want to end my life !! 12 years of imprisonment..My life is over "
Musthafa (61)


When I talked to him and came to know about his story,I understood one thing that my life isn't even 10% worst when compared to them.
Musthafa have been in this jail for the past 32 years...He burnt 7men alive who killed his sister..During that period the ruler ordered a very interesting verdict..
"If anyone of those 7 men comes back,he would be freed that day"
My talks with that person really changed my life.May be it's God who sent me here for the best of my life..
When I walked in through the gate of this prison I was :a college dropout,broke my parents hearts,brought disgrace to them,and with a mind in the state "Life is Over"..


Musthafa's these words were like those from God's mouth..And that's the reason that made me eager to live more..
"Life isn't over for you..you are just 22 year old..Trust me,when you are out of this prison at the age of 32 you may realize that you have hardly lost some things..This is the best course of your life,but unfortunately the duration is a little bit more.I have seen more life than you..When I got into this jail,your parents must have been in their teenage.Looking at your eyes I can say that you are regretting your past and you are looking for a chance..I will help you getting that chance !!
Will you study if you get a second chance ?? Not after getting out from the prison,study in the prison.I will set things up for you here.Learn whatever you want to learn in this 10 years and get out from this prison like a man gearing up for the next level.You may be thinking "how?" ..There are no policemen here who doesn't know me,there are even kids of former policemen who took up their dad's job.I can set this up for you,just tell me a course you want to learn apart from those requires training...You are a loser to society right now,don't you want to change it ??"


Musthafa was put initially in a cell alone for 2 years..It was designed in such a way that he wouldn't see anyone or any sunlight.2 years of complete darkness,silence and loneliness.
Musthafa stood with me for everything as a friend and as a teacher,as a parent..
After 4 years 6 months I got my Degree Certificate with Rank..That day it wasn't a jail for any of us.All the policemen,superiors and other friends poured in their wishes and arranged a small party too in superintendent's office.Good food,good water,cold drinks..It was not only my friends eyes mine too got filled with tears.Superintendent asked me to do my Masters degree too and did all arrangements for it.He sponsored me all the books..Musthafa was very happy seeing my smile.
Musthafa wasn't doing good with his health by then..he is getting older.


Musthafa was always there in inspiring me,taught me to listen well even to kids..Police friends taught me "Psychology of telling lies" and that was the main fun we had there..Within 10 seconds we would be able to catch a lie.Terrific it is !! After I got rank in my Degree,Court reduced my punishment to 8 and half years..but on a condition that I must complete my masters within this period.
Now,Superintendent came running to show my pic in news paper !! It read "Golden Star in Prison ranks No.1 in Masters Degree !!" Musthafa came in and hugged me and said "Sanjay I feel Goosebumps all over my body" You have done it !! You have done it !! See the news paper "they are praising you as a Golden Star and a role model for others !!!"A job is ready for me,as a gift from the government.
Musthafa is actually the Golden Star,he is the one who brought everything out of me.He not only changed me but my life too..
Tomorrow is my last day in this prison,I should no more say it's a Prison.This is the place that changed my life to a positive note.Musthafa is the one I'm gonna miss the most..he isn't well with his health too..
Standing out infront of this Prison Gate today...I'm a double Degree holder !! A job in hand worth USD 2500 $ ! Yes,I'm never a Loser... Musthafa you are really my God !!


During this 8 years 7 months and 26 days..I saw a lot of them..Many friends left in between to God and some must be living happily now.It was great pain to watch our friends walking out at morning to the execution room.They would be like a dead rubber.Last 2-3 days before hanging,they would have started to die mentally..
There are parents who scold their children when they flunk a year in schools or colleges.If we think wisely it's never a loss at all.There are instances where people pass out successfully but have to wait for 2 years to get a job,may be more.Never disappoint them telling their loss or never mark them down as a loser.It's only when we loose,we would challenge ourselves and take a better leap."Failures are the stepping stone to success" This we happily forgets each time..
Motivation and Inspiration works big time on Losers,what they just wanted would be a supporter.
If I could do this from Prison,I think other than death ,nothing can fail you..
Prison  made me a double degree holder,a mentally strong man,fearless and an architect of life..




Best Wishes to all..
Sanjay Rathore.